Showing posts with label In NYC. Show all posts
Showing posts with label In NYC. Show all posts

Monday, March 28, 2011

Speaking Japanese in NYC






Shinji in New York
Chelsea Hotel and High Line --
Magritte on Sunday.

Yesterday after sleeping in and trying to catch up on emails I set out to meet Shinji Shishikura -- the performance artist who I had been scheduled to collaborate with in Tokyo. Shinji is being sponsored by Sony to record his performances around the world, in front of museums including the Louvre in Paris. He was in Okinawa for the earthquake, on a smaller island of the many islands that make up the prefecture. The ferries stopped running, and in order to get back to Tokyo (where his mother was potentially scheduled for an operation), he had to hide himself on a fishing boat that was checked by the sea police. He told me all of this yesterday, as we walked around Chelsea, and I spoke Japanese again. Faltering at first. Feeling shaky. But soon, we were drawing pictures to describe the things my Japanese couldn't muster, and once a wavelength was reached, my confidence returned, and then I felt there was nothing I couldn't express.

Shinji had been scheduled to arrive in New York with his troupe of performers -- but because of the earthquake everything was thrown for a loop and he barely managed to get out himself, finding a last minute accommodation over the net. The weather was cold yesterday, but bright and sunny. We talked about a candy that comes from Brighton, England -- where Queen the rock band got their start and where Grahm Greene wrote some of his novels. The candy is called "Brighton Rock," and is like a peppermint stick with a picture etched in the center. No matter where you break the stick of sweetness, the image stays intact, like the rings of tree. I had my storyboard notebook which I had purchased for our collaboration, and had even written on the first page, in Katakana: "Shinji to Regina." He drew two pictures in the two storyboards...starting with a sketch of BRIGHTON ROCK on the top right frame. Then, in the top left frame, he drew the same rod sketch, this time with a face etched in the top. This, he said, was "Kitaro." He also wrote the kanji for it beneath the letters. Apparently, KITARO is a candy just like BRIGHTON ROCK, in Japan. It goes back at least 100 years, and is known especially by the older population. Looking at the two images side by side, and picturing a map of the world in my mind, I told him: "naru hodo." "I get it." A specifically sweet coincidence of candy cane proportions.

Shinji is staying on 28th Street, off the 2/3 -- so I thought the high line was a good place to start. I pointed out one of my favorite sights in NYC -- the wooden water towers that sit atop countless buildings. They are quintessential Manhattan to me -- and always pull my eyes upward. I told him I wasn't sure where else these vats made from wood existed -- and didn't they seem like they belonged on a farm? We made our way south, turning west on 23rd street. The Chelsea Hotel loomed at our left, and as we approached I remembered going there once with Cynthia Karalla, to a party in one of the apartments one winter when I lived in New York. Thinking back to that night, the images were mixed in my mind with the film CAPOTE; still not sure why. Maybe I had seen CAPOTE right around that time. Or maybe the interior of the apartment was so very similar to the party scene from the movie. Grand piano. Velveteen couch with significant wear. Low lighting and old lamps. Hardwood floors and built in cabinetry. Guests who each seemed to step off the pages of a Salinger novel -- everywhere I turned people seemed fabulous in their vintage frocks and black framed glasses. Sipping wine while a plate of cheese, crackers and grapes made its rounds. Listening to Cynthia introduce me as "Regina the actress," who "is just simply fabulous as Agnes in Agnes of God."

We snapped some photos in the lobby. I noticed the old telephone booths to the left of front desk, and told Shinji that those kind of full standing 'boxes' were a thing of the past -- so hard to find a Superman telephone booth these days! We made our way west, but the entrance to the High Line at 23rd was closed for construction so we walked along The West Side Highway, stopping at what looked like a stage. In fact, it was a building that seemed in transition -- with a wall that had been spray painted in black and white, and off the side (aka stage right) -- an old black and white photo of a man leaning down in front of a brownstone had been plastered to the wall. We stood on the 'stage," marveling at the space with the cars flying by where an audience would be -- and the Chelsea Piers buttressing what might have been the back of the house.

Walked by the new IAC building, which was featured in the opening credits of the most recent version of Wall Street. A Frank Gehry work, it is a glacial white, shaped less like a building and more like a complex carbohydrate under high magnification. The building itself is owned by media magnate Barry Diller, and is in fact like a complex carb, home to many media companies within -- including Notional, the TV company that hired me to do the gameshow with Chris Wylde in February at TV Asahi -- in Tokyo. It's also where Potocki worked last spring and summer, on the pilot "Tonight's Funniest," for Comedy Central -- and where Mom and Dad came to stare at the Hudson from high above with a view of the Statue of Liberty. I have a picture of my Mom, her back to the camera as she looked out towards the revitalized piers, remembering bidding farewell to the steamships that carried her Aunts and Uncles on vacations when she was a little girl.

Up on the High Line, we marveled at the architecture. I explained that it was once the elevated train line that ran down the west side. And that Barry Diller himself (owner of the white glacier building), and his wife Diane Von Furstenberg (the fashion icon), were huge supporters and donors for the construction of this much loved social space. I was turning out to be quite the tour guide -- in Japanese, no less.

As we walked past the closed Chelsea Market, I urged Shinji to return on his own (it being so close to his place). The conversation turned again to the earthquake, but this time about my leaving Tokyo. I felt I needed to explain, and started to describe what had happened to me 16 years ago in the Kobe quake, and how (having just recently returned to Kamakura) I had come to realize the severity of my staff infection (which engulfed my right leg). No sooner had I mentioned it, that Shinji stopped me -- pointing to a solitary black boot that lay on the sidewalk next to a fire hydrant in front of us -- seemingly abandoned. We stopped and stared at it. It was a combat boot for the right foot, and next to it was a plastic bag filled with some mystery contents. On the fire hydrant, spray painted in yellow, was a singular question mark. "Anata no hanashi to kore o mittara -- Magritte mittai, ne?" Shinji asked me, smiling. "It's like a Magritte -- your story about your leg and this, here now." We marveled at the surrealism. I pictured Dali's melting clock and for the first time understood the intersection of our imaginations -- and reality.

As we approached 28th Street it was getting towards 6pm. I talked again of this week. Was there some way we could collaborate? Shinji thought about it and said that we had met in Tokyo, and were collaborating now -- by walking and talking. That like a good wine, what we can create will be even more delicious if we give it time to age. Perhaps we should shoot something in front of the Louvre -- where his work is currently on exhibit. Or maybe in LA. What was better, he wanted to know -- shooting in LA or New York? I hemmed and hawed, explaining that New York has an energy and a history that LA cannot touch. Thinking of Woody Allen's movies and the way the shadows cast on old brick. But -- that LA has Venice, and the canals. And that the history I had discovered there most recently (of Abbott Kinney and his Coney Island of the West with roller coasters and piers) -- could also make for a beautiful setting. We decided to leave it undecided. But certainly in process.

Where else did he want to see? The Dakota. Central Park. Dumbo. So that is now on tap. I'm excited to be a tour guide for Shinji -- but also for myself. He will come to dinner here with Chris, Bentley and I tomorrow night. The south street seaport, where we are now, is a treasure trove of history. Cobblestone streets and the Brooklyn Bridge. Oh, the Brooklyn Bridge. Nothing quite like its cathedral-like arches in pigeon gray.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Get Back to Where You Once Belonged...






I have been having writer's block. Or blogger's block. I like 'blogger's block' better. Alliteration has a way of winning.

When I lived in Japan at 18, I kept a copious written diary. I filled eight journals with minutiae, including the songs that used to play on my mix tapes to and from school, back in the days of walkmans and mix tapes. If I missed a day, I fretted until the moment my pen would touch the page again. At which point I'd make sure to list what had happened. Who I met, what I thought, what I ate, epiphanies and heartaches. That's how we learn to do it. "Dear Diary..." Who, What, Why, Where and When. Not unlike the questions an actor must ask herself. Who are you? Where are you? What do you want? What's in your way? Who are you talking to? It's how we tell a story -- to ourselves or to others if we are making believe. When you keep a diary, you record what happened with the strange built in audience of your imagined future self, someday picking it up and reading it. Because the future is unknown, everything is significant.

When I got to Kobe last week, I spent all day Wednesday writing, wanting to make sure the images of my journey weren't lost to new agendas and realities. I left off on Monday 3/14, like a page folded in a book that I meant to come right back to. The rest of the week I was in a 'liminal' state (thank you Victor Turner and George Mentore). Not on the inside, and not quite on the outside. Out of Tokyo, but not yet back home. But the beauty was -- I knew the town. Kobe was where I first learned to speak Japanese. The marune color of the Hankyu train cars -- which I once rode to school dressed in uniform -- were the same. Each station with its town written in both English and Hiragana, cream lettering on navy blue. Once upon a time I stared out those same train windows, a sea of clay tile roofs stretching towards mountains in the distance, listening as the conductor announced the next stop. I'd study the foreign script, the curvaceousness of Hiragana (once used only by women) testing myself on the characters. Slowly, slowly learning how the sounds got mushed together. Then I would try it out for myself. "Toyonaka." "To.Yo.Na.Ka."

That's what last week was like. I kept stepping back in time -- remembering all the pieces that led up to the earthquake in '95 -- and all the pieces that followed. Okuno San took me to Minoh Kooen -- Minoh Park. We walked the paths that stretch up the mountain towards the waterfall. It's where I got attacked by three monkeys whose claws broke my skin -- the scars of which I still have on my right forearm. My battle scars. My monkey scars. The weather was cool and Minoh was green, lush, reminding me of Big Sur and Idyllwild all at once. We kept looking for the monkeys but they were no where in sight. It was too cold for them to be out yet. When I used to run there, it was Spring and the Cherry Blossoms were in full bloom. The pinkest pink you've ever seen.

The day before I left, Yoshii San drove me to the top of Rokko mountain and we looked down at Kobe Harbor. She pointed out the name of a small mountain in the foreground and I felt myself topographically, staring southward towards the tip of Honshu, the Pacific ocean to my left and beyond that, California. Just the night before I had been singing Joni Mitchell with Yukiko, Okuno San's granddaughter, who is 2 years younger than I and who I had been friends with so long ago. We called ourselves "Reiko and Peach."

Oh it gets so lonely
When you're walking
and the streets are full of strangers
all the news of home you read
more about the war
and the bloody changes...
oh -- will you take me as I am?
Will you take me as I am?
Will you -- will you take me as I am?

Yoshii took me to Arima -- one of the oldest onsen in Japan where soldiers went after World War II to heal their wounds. We took off our clothes and sat side by side in small 'booths,' washing each other's backs before stepping out to the hot springs. The first was rich in iron deposits and the water left a brown tinge on the pink sandstone wall. The second was a milky white, highly ionized (or so the English description explained) with the power to cast off negative ions from a bather's body. A glass wall separated us from a grove of bamboo giving the impression that you were in fact outside. Yoshii told me of her swim lessons as a little girl, on the shores of Kobe harbor. Her instructor would toss a red rock out into the waves, and each student had to dive and swim while holding their breath until they surfaced, rock in hand. Cocking her right arm, she demonstrated the toss as water droplets hit the milky water, forming cocentric circles, spreading outward. They became the circles of long ago, as I imagined Yoshii's nine year old body swimming toward the point of entry, beneath the waves, lungs filled with determination, eyes wide and fixed on the prize.

It was getting too hot, and we had to be at Konan for a meeting with Mrs. Nagao. Yoshii San left and I decided to try one more steaming pool, but as I stepped in an older woman and perhaps her granddaughter stood up suddenly to leave. The woman my age smiled and said they were already leaving, and I smiled back, waiting for them to step out. When they were gone I stared out towards the mountains, my face newly hot with a mixture of pride and shame and anger. I stood naked and thought of Jim Crow laws and water fountains. Reasoned that maybe they really were already getting out. But let it go, knowing full well I'd never know -- and that it was time for me to go anyway.

True to form, there was Yoshii, waiting for me. She pointed towards the standing shower with a glass wall that faced the carp pond. "To cool off," she told me. I stepped in and pushed the big silver dial on the wall, a spray of frigid water stealing the steam from my skin and taking my breath away. I thought of Sendai and World War II and began to cry. My whole body felt like one big tear. Cold, so cold. My skin rippled with goosebumps.

At the end of the day we visited Konan's Women's College and took a tour of their priceless collection of books in a locked room above the stacks of the library. Shakespeare, Mark Twain, Jane Austen, Henry David Thoreau, Thomas Hardy, Goethe, and more. All first editions. Archives of letters written on stationary from The Dorchester in London, where I once stayed. As we left I couldn't help but stop and stare at the statue of "The Thinker," with Kobe beginning to twinkle in the blue hue of twilight below. A flock of crows overhead. It was strange, everyone said, for them to be cawing so loudly. I thought of my plane flight the next day. The full moon on Saturday 3/19, leaving on a jet plane. Don't know when I'll be back again.

The next morning I furiously typed into my i-touch as I rode the bus with Mr. Yoshii to the airport. All the images. Desperate to record them. Lest I forget them. Afraid of the silence that did come over this past week. Of plane rides and sleepness nights and waking in hotel rooms, sure that I was just in another room of Yoshii's house that I had not yet seen. Or even in a hotel in Tokyo. Slowly coming to the realization that I was home. Back to where I once belonged. To Seattle and to the faces of my family, airports and a train ride to Penn Station where I found Chris, on his birthday, waiting for me. And Bentley beneath the Brooklyn Bridge.

Too many moments and images to properly do justice. But I will continue to try. Or, as Yoda once said: "there is no try, only do." So I sit here now, in New York, listening to the sound of the MTA bus sail by outside...a whale beside the yellow fish taxis. All swimming upstream on the island that never sleeps, powered by the almighty hum of oil, the resource we all now hate to need -- so desperately.